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Life...eh.....

Fri May 29, 2009, 2:20 PM
  • Mood: Hopeless
  • Listening to: The sounds of nature in my backyard
  • Reading: Scar Tissue by Anthony Kiedis-Awsome Book!
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: The game of life.....
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Coffee
Man, it has been quite a while since I have written a journal on here. Jeez. But I feel like venting and for me this is a good place to do it, so I think I will.

Recently, my life has been up and down and round and round, in a nut shell an emotional roller coaster. I feels like stuff just hasn't been the same for me. It feels like things are falling apart and coming undone.I don't have that close knit feeling anymore. Its like I am falling away and fading.

It seems like last year everything was just fricken peachy and now, even though my life is sprinkled with fun, is just not what it used to be. Which granted things change I understand that. I just don't like where I am sitting right now, my point of view is bleak and clouded and that makes me nervous. What I would give to turn back time.

Stress feels like my top priority right now and that leaves no room for good times. Makes me feel like packing up and just taking off to some tropical hiatus just to take a break and get some air. I feel like getting away from it all. I need a pick me up, I just don't know what it is.

But anyway, hopefully things will find a way to become bright and beautiful again and I can enjoy life like I used to. Only time will tell.

Signing off

Jenn

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~Hananoki May 29, 2009, 7:53:58 PM
I hope you feel better, Jenn....we've all been through a lot this year, and things have never been so bleak and desperate as they are now (at least on my end, I can't speak for everyone else)....I feel like my smile is a lie....a defensive mechanism to mask my broken interior...I think missing you has had an effect on me, too.....we used to be so full of each other to keep our spirits high, and I KNOW my life is lacking without you....AND ash...not to mention others...but I am hopeful things will perk up for everyone. Me? Not so sure....but if everyone else gets to be happy, at least I can smile at that. :) I love ya. *hug*
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~Incandescent-Sea May 29, 2009, 9:53:36 PM
i know what ya mean....

i think this year sucked for prettymuch everyone..... or at least everyone i know.......

but....i dont know..... im starting to feel better..... i think..... so it happens, you'll feel better eventually.

as my mom would say, the sun will come back out eventually, and you'll be happy again :)

i think..... you kind of have to...... put your brain in line...... like when it starts thinking negative just tell it no, and stop before you really get into it, and tell yourself that youre strong and you can do it
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